Now that we’re right at the halfway point we can start taking inventory of the baby stuff we still have, what we need to buy again, and start our little lady’s wardrobe. While this new baby is an amazing blessing, we weren’t planning on it happening right now. At all. My husband and I are actually kicking ourselves for giving away some of the big baby stuff and moving from a 3 bedroom to a 2 bedroom earlier this year! But we’ll make it. This house is supposed to be a stepping stone while we save up to buy our own home anyway, now we just have to make it happen faster!
Overall, I’m incredibly excited and a little bit scared. Most of my fears are for my own health and for my son. I’m terrified of dying during childbirth. I know it’s rare but I am. Or having to have a C-section. I’m also afraid of how Little J will feel once the new baby comes home and I have to give much of my attention to a newborn. Will he feel unloved? Will he think he’s being pushed aside? He is too young to understand what’s about to happen, and too young for me to even explain it to him. One day very soon his world will change without warning and his mother will have another human to take care of. And he won’t know why. That’s what scares me most of all.
Okay, now that I’ve gone all sappy I’ll leave you with baby girl’s debut picture!
