I have a confession to make. I’m addicted to the sweet stuff. I’m talking a two doughnut daily minimum washed down with a 20oz soda and a Hershey’s bar addicted. I don’t know how I got this way, but ever since little J was born I’ve been a ravenous sugar monster. And I’ve finally had enough. I’m cutting sugar from my diet. I’ve been looking at a closet full of clothes I can’t fit into for over a year, my weight is a steady 140, and I’m really starting to notice the health effects of constantly having excess sugar in my body.
When I first got pregnant I was very active, ate really healthy, and weighed 116 pounds. I hardly ever watched tv or went out for ice cream, and I generally felt well all around. Fast forward to the day little J was born. I had gained 70 pounds! My weight was out of control and it was totally caused by my out of control snacking. I thought i would be better once I wasn’t “eating for two” anymore (and to be fair I did lose 45 of my 70 pounds in the first six months) but now I eat worse than ever before!
Now that Fall is here and the weather is getting cooler I’ve decided that I WILL wear my regular clothes this winter. Last year I had the excuse of being a brand new mother, and this summer I just wore stretchy skirts and dresses the whole time. But this year I don’t want to get new clothes. I love my old ones! I know just how to rock them and just how good each one looks on me. The other day I was looking at some pictures from the first few weeks I knew I was pregnant. I looked good. Then I came across one from a few weeks ago and thought holy wow. Do I really look like that??? Then I cried.
Wanting to look good isn’t the only reason for this change. I just don’t feel good. Ever. I’m tired all the time, I’m moody, and I have random stomach pains that are really freaking me out. I get winded when I go on walks, just thinking about hiking makes me sweat, and I’m pretty sure I could buy a a new laptop with all the money I’ve spent on food this year.
My plan is to cut out sugar and junk food, gradually increase my activity level, and start back with yoga. (I’ve been ignoring it for months.) I’m going to cook healthier meals (I don’t really eat out because there are only a handful of vegetarian friendly restaurants where I live.) I know that I will probably have a few slip ups, but I don’t really think it will be that hard. Today is actually my third day without a single sweet food and I feel great! . I might start doing weekly blog updates on my progress or frustrations. Or cool things I’m trying or new diet friendly recipes I find (vegetarian of course.) I’m hoping by my birthday in November that I will be almost back to normal!
